10/31/2007
Just like ships
we float through each others lives
It's one of those "yeah. Ok..whatever" moments, and no, I'm still supposed to be on hiatus. But
a) I'm procrastinating, and I figured, what the hell. One of these days I'm gonna wake up and panic as I realise how much work I've really got to do though the lack of major-assignments-due-tomorrow is kind of deceiving. Actually no, I lied. Maths test tomorrow and Chem on Friday, not to mention huge presentation and Lit essay due next week. Ughhhhhh.
b) Today's been a noteworthy (school) day, and in case I don't make it to my diary tonight, I'm gonna quickly write something here. Haha xD Also, the last week and a half has been great as well, should note something down somewhere before I forget, right? xD
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Anyway, today I realised I might not take to disappointment very well. (This isn't hte noteworthy bit, this idea came up when I turned on the computer haha oops? xD) I mean, everything's always good to/for me, I always seem to have the right results (NOT just academic wise!), and things always turn out fine even if they take some really horrible wrong turn some random point along the way. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. Things I've failed at, are things I never really cared/tried for in the first place and the only real failure I've really had/cared for was my posting after PSLE, and see how well that turned out? Mm, it kind of sounds like I'm itching for failure so I can learn how to be disappointed. I'm not, it's just an unexplored thought.
Last week was half term, holidays. Keep having holidays like these, I'm never going to want to go back to school. Hahaha. Best ever, had Jess' "surprise" party, and little crew outings and things. Met new people! Which is always a plus. (:
School started yesterday, and it's (only been 2 days but) been good. Chose our options for General Studies yesterday, OMG I'm so hoping I get to do theatre of MIME. How cool would that be. Or, BALLROOM DANCING. HAHA brilliant. It would mean having to hold hands with a boy you don't know at all, and that would be traumatizing, but it would be amazing! Haha, other options included some music thing bout Leonard Cohen (which I put as 2nd choice), uhm some Carry On radio programme bout Monty Python (which would be good if I was at all witty), Yoga, European cinema, and screen printing (print on tshirts and stuff with special paint - fun, but did too much of it for Os art. hahaha xD) So exciting!
ANYWAY,
Today was halloween! And I was a witch. xD Everyone saw me in (lucy's) witches hat (with green hair that actually looks REAL because it covers up all my real hair) and was like "AWW Shin, so sweet!" I was like, wtf, witch. Scary. Not. Sweet. Haha it was fun xD Should so have put on clown make up, I make a scary clown. Anyway, Chloe was a cat, so she was my familiar/cat. So was Sian (pronounced Shan), and she made her own ears it was like omggg so amazing! Sound of Music set painting at lunch, and overheard the rehearsal. Almost got paint on the hat, thank God I didn't. Haha. Anyway, rehearsals sounded so amazing, the Maria has SUCH an amazing voice, and so does Captain Von Trapp (from the boy's school). Haha he doesn't look like a captain but yeah, I just rememberd that's the point because Maria says "you don't look like at all like a sea captain sir" when she first sees him. Yeah, I know the musical too well. Anyway, I hate what MrP made us do to the design of the set (which I spent at least 3 of my only free lunchtimes doing AFTER I asked him to approve it), but ahwell we'll make the most of it, heheheh Ellie and I make the best team it's great. xD
Which reminds me, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO! If you ever read this? haha. (:
Oh, a sober alcoholic from Alcoholics Anonymous came today to speak to us in PSE. It was very, very interesting, and hardhitting, especially since they played that video after where there were actually almost-convincing actors and non-shaky filming. But yeah, alcoholism is a disease apparently? If you're an alcoholic and you give up the drink after however many years of it, and stay sober for however many years, the moment you start drinking again, even 1/2 a glass of wine, you'll be hooked again and it'll be like you never stopped drinking at all. (How horribly expressed was that?) Basically, it's a disease and it progresses/develops with time once it's started, even if you don't drink at all for 10 years. So you can't touch a drop. Which is shocking, and scary and it's so psychological, and scary. Anyway, the guy speaking was amazing, and you could feel his sincerity. He didn't tell us to not drink. I mean, he as good as told us that we could go drink till we died, it was none of his business. But that way, he made sure that he got the message through, and if we took him seriously, we won't go too far. Which was amazing, whether that was his intention or not. He wasn't emotional or anything throughout. Actually, he was kind of matter-of-fact. He wasn't funny or witty or perfect, from what he told us, he's done some horrible things. But there was just something about him that caught our attention. Maybe because he started off his speech by saying "I'm an alcoholic, and I'm proud of it." And you could tell he was genuinely happy, and satisfied and glad to be where he was, and he really loved what he was doing - helping other alcoholics and promoting what the AA does and things. It was brilliant.
That was one bit.
Another bit was when I visited my Y7s in (Lucy's) witches hat! (P6/sec1) Haha haven't been to see them in so long, I actually have some sweets to give them for halloween but forgot to bring them. :/ Yeah, yupi gummy burgers! They'd love those - don't have them in this country. I brought them over during the Summer. Anyway, they were doing this tutorial thing on bullying. A), they're really really clever. B) they're really sweet, and so amazingly resilient, and they made me very impressed, and feel very fortunate (and very stupid). haha. Bullying in this country is so widespread, I've always taken it for granted that I've always had a friendly environment to go to school in (be it in Sg or here), and if I got bullied in primary school, I never knew it (Yeah, I lived in my own world). But yeah, my Y7s are so amazingly .. amazing, and they work so well together, and are so enthusiastic it's great. Haha, when I visit 4 years down the road, they're gonna have turned out into such fantastic individuals if they keep going the way they have. I left that session going, wow couldn't stop talking bout it to Kat in Maths. Hahaha, oops? xD They're still such children, but they're going to go far. Especially as a form.
Oohkay. I've been trying to figure out who visits my blog from America, because apparently someone does but I don't know anyone from America, do I? Haha ahhhwell.
The next week and a half are gonna be crazy. (Oh have I mentioned, Holes is one of the BEST movies I've watched, ever. SO going on my list of movies to watch over and over again. Omg I'm so tempted to steal Ellie's DVD and pretend I've lost it so I don't have to return it.) (And increasingly, I want a tablet!! Grrr, when I can be bothered, I'll scan in a doodle, you'll understand) Yup, I just attempted to list everything I have to do and gave up. My shoe box (in place of file-tray-thing) is half full of documents/essays/incomplete homework/revision reminders/trip reminders/events/commitments so I better get started. Ughhh, can't be bothered. Sat here the whole of half term going, "Need to do work. (pause) Can't be bothered." Repeat. Haha oh sigh.
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'Ere goes, this is so what we should've done for Halloween. (From school musical last year)
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Just like ships
we float through each others lives
It's one of those "yeah. Ok..whatever" moments, and no, I'm still supposed to be on hiatus. But
a) I'm procrastinating, and I figured, what the hell. One of these days I'm gonna wake up and panic as I realise how much work I've really got to do though the lack of major-assignments-due-tomorrow is kind of deceiving. Actually no, I lied. Maths test tomorrow and Chem on Friday, not to mention huge presentation and Lit essay due next week. Ughhhhhh.
b) Today's been a noteworthy (school) day, and in case I don't make it to my diary tonight, I'm gonna quickly write something here. Haha xD Also, the last week and a half has been great as well, should note something down somewhere before I forget, right? xD
________________________________________
Anyway, today I realised I might not take to disappointment very well. (This isn't hte noteworthy bit, this idea came up when I turned on the computer haha oops? xD) I mean, everything's always good to/for me, I always seem to have the right results (NOT just academic wise!), and things always turn out fine even if they take some really horrible wrong turn some random point along the way. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. Things I've failed at, are things I never really cared/tried for in the first place and the only real failure I've really had/cared for was my posting after PSLE, and see how well that turned out? Mm, it kind of sounds like I'm itching for failure so I can learn how to be disappointed. I'm not, it's just an unexplored thought.
Last week was half term, holidays. Keep having holidays like these, I'm never going to want to go back to school. Hahaha. Best ever, had Jess' "surprise" party, and little crew outings and things. Met new people! Which is always a plus. (:
School started yesterday, and it's (only been 2 days but) been good. Chose our options for General Studies yesterday, OMG I'm so hoping I get to do theatre of MIME. How cool would that be. Or, BALLROOM DANCING. HAHA brilliant. It would mean having to hold hands with a boy you don't know at all, and that would be traumatizing, but it would be amazing! Haha, other options included some music thing bout Leonard Cohen (which I put as 2nd choice), uhm some Carry On radio programme bout Monty Python (which would be good if I was at all witty), Yoga, European cinema, and screen printing (print on tshirts and stuff with special paint - fun, but did too much of it for Os art. hahaha xD) So exciting!
ANYWAY,
Today was halloween! And I was a witch. xD Everyone saw me in (lucy's) witches hat (with green hair that actually looks REAL because it covers up all my real hair) and was like "AWW Shin, so sweet!" I was like, wtf, witch. Scary. Not. Sweet. Haha it was fun xD Should so have put on clown make up, I make a scary clown. Anyway, Chloe was a cat, so she was my familiar/cat. So was Sian (pronounced Shan), and she made her own ears it was like omggg so amazing! Sound of Music set painting at lunch, and overheard the rehearsal. Almost got paint on the hat, thank God I didn't. Haha. Anyway, rehearsals sounded so amazing, the Maria has SUCH an amazing voice, and so does Captain Von Trapp (from the boy's school). Haha he doesn't look like a captain but yeah, I just rememberd that's the point because Maria says "you don't look like at all like a sea captain sir" when she first sees him. Yeah, I know the musical too well. Anyway, I hate what MrP made us do to the design of the set (which I spent at least 3 of my only free lunchtimes doing AFTER I asked him to approve it), but ahwell we'll make the most of it, heheheh Ellie and I make the best team it's great. xD
Which reminds me, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO! If you ever read this? haha. (:
Oh, a sober alcoholic from Alcoholics Anonymous came today to speak to us in PSE. It was very, very interesting, and hardhitting, especially since they played that video after where there were actually almost-convincing actors and non-shaky filming. But yeah, alcoholism is a disease apparently? If you're an alcoholic and you give up the drink after however many years of it, and stay sober for however many years, the moment you start drinking again, even 1/2 a glass of wine, you'll be hooked again and it'll be like you never stopped drinking at all. (How horribly expressed was that?) Basically, it's a disease and it progresses/develops with time once it's started, even if you don't drink at all for 10 years. So you can't touch a drop. Which is shocking, and scary and it's so psychological, and scary. Anyway, the guy speaking was amazing, and you could feel his sincerity. He didn't tell us to not drink. I mean, he as good as told us that we could go drink till we died, it was none of his business. But that way, he made sure that he got the message through, and if we took him seriously, we won't go too far. Which was amazing, whether that was his intention or not. He wasn't emotional or anything throughout. Actually, he was kind of matter-of-fact. He wasn't funny or witty or perfect, from what he told us, he's done some horrible things. But there was just something about him that caught our attention. Maybe because he started off his speech by saying "I'm an alcoholic, and I'm proud of it." And you could tell he was genuinely happy, and satisfied and glad to be where he was, and he really loved what he was doing - helping other alcoholics and promoting what the AA does and things. It was brilliant.
That was one bit.
Another bit was when I visited my Y7s in (Lucy's) witches hat! (P6/sec1) Haha haven't been to see them in so long, I actually have some sweets to give them for halloween but forgot to bring them. :/ Yeah, yupi gummy burgers! They'd love those - don't have them in this country. I brought them over during the Summer. Anyway, they were doing this tutorial thing on bullying. A), they're really really clever. B) they're really sweet, and so amazingly resilient, and they made me very impressed, and feel very fortunate (and very stupid). haha. Bullying in this country is so widespread, I've always taken it for granted that I've always had a friendly environment to go to school in (be it in Sg or here), and if I got bullied in primary school, I never knew it (Yeah, I lived in my own world). But yeah, my Y7s are so amazingly .. amazing, and they work so well together, and are so enthusiastic it's great. Haha, when I visit 4 years down the road, they're gonna have turned out into such fantastic individuals if they keep going the way they have. I left that session going, wow couldn't stop talking bout it to Kat in Maths. Hahaha, oops? xD They're still such children, but they're going to go far. Especially as a form.
Oohkay. I've been trying to figure out who visits my blog from America, because apparently someone does but I don't know anyone from America, do I? Haha ahhhwell.
The next week and a half are gonna be crazy. (Oh have I mentioned, Holes is one of the BEST movies I've watched, ever. SO going on my list of movies to watch over and over again. Omg I'm so tempted to steal Ellie's DVD and pretend I've lost it so I don't have to return it.) (And increasingly, I want a tablet!! Grrr, when I can be bothered, I'll scan in a doodle, you'll understand) Yup, I just attempted to list everything I have to do and gave up. My shoe box (in place of file-tray-thing) is half full of documents/essays/incomplete homework/revision reminders/trip reminders/events/commitments so I better get started. Ughhh, can't be bothered. Sat here the whole of half term going, "Need to do work. (pause) Can't be bothered." Repeat. Haha oh sigh.
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'Ere goes, this is so what we should've done for Halloween. (From school musical last year)
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:D
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